Porcupine Woman...

sometimes, when someone is set on taking one on you right from the beginning, it is confirmed that slowly but surely, there builds a negative or not so helpful perception in one's mind that is pretty much damaging to the inter personal dynamics..

now be that in family life where a girl gets married and there is some personality in the new family who constantly digs for ways to show her down... or expose her weakness

or be it a peer who just cannot stand that a woman is at a certain position and makes derogatory remarks whenever possible or find a means to make things really difficult for her.. .. I for one am experiencing that and well I was blissful in the fact that this personality was my peer and I could ignore... but karma rewarded me with gold points of pain and trauma when this personality had to become by boss due to some unforeseen events..

And the adage every dog has its day... became my dark reality...
now everywhere i turn, I am pinched in all ways possible to make my life as uncomfortable as possible..
so well...

Many a  times, its pushing me to the brink of quitting but I know its just a challenge I have to face.. or something i have to overcome...

The question is how...
imagine this soul in diapers... running around the unit.....hahahahah... a good one..
imagine his voice is like mickey mouse... that works...
but the 1:1 definitely puts all my bristles up... and if I were to describe myself with a super power, porcupine woman would be one... hahahaha :) with all the spines up...

Anyways, so I have to find my way out..
I am asking myself... what is the lesson i have to learn here.. ? Tolerance, see the kindness inside that soul, see the goodness... dear lord, I am praying everyday... to have myself detach myself and just move on as I do like what I am doing... despite everything...

Last time I had to stand up to a very pathetic person, the lesson was to stand up for the truth and what I believed in... for justice...

So I am thinking :

First rule, diminish the so called power over me...
if things are difficult, accept it and move on
Accept the fact that this soul's way of looking at things will always be different based on the different backgrounds we come from.
there are always souls like this who will get antagonised by the very reason that there is woman who is speaking up to him.
this soul will misuse his powers every now and then to get an edge... deal with it...
and lastly look for a new job.... sad as it sounds... but yes thats the final step... if nothing else works...

can work with many difficult souls but if your biggest stakeholder your manager does not trust you, or believe in you... then my very existence has no significance and without that, the role that I play at work becomes useless...